the
big

mood

the

big

chance too big

for
you

you

say

fat

chance but the
little

one the little chance the

little
trance that is

a
different

story
i sent  a fairly light
hearted

response to it

as

you know i

did

so for a reason how

can

i explain i

am

sorry

to

say
i

am

tired
too
yes
to
care
tired to care as much as i really do

feel tried like

very

tried
like

i
was

supposed to care and care

yet
i

can't

stop

it

anyway

i'll
leave

it

to
you
for

one

surely

to
God one knows

what

to

say

to me about

it

like it doesn't

take
forever

to
write home even

though

there

is

more

around

here somewhere that is as
it

were
nothing

to
write

home

about
surely to God you have

your
reasons
too

i

personally
can see no

reason

why

that

article wouldn't fall
into

the

strange

no

no
category but of course i

am

tired
too
tired to read it again

in

mid

air
and

like
i said or really inferred

i

do
trust
one

but

yes

i

am

tired
like

it for now that tired
old

article did you

read
it

at

all
no

doubt you saw

it

coming
a

mile away and
it

most certainly did

not

make a fool out of
you

dear

with
best wishes may i remain in your

company

little

one

in the little
trance

it

is

a fool's paradise that is

a
fool's hell to

be

processed as fat

moody

i

am

glad

you
were spared how

could
i

not

write you now that is

a

different

story
i won't get

into

it
all

that much now though that

article

is

still

bugging

me
about it yes i should

have

written to you
more

often

you

were the one i loved no big

mood

like that article
made
for a fool is meant

to

convey as it

was
you

yes

as

it
has been you

are
the

one

i should have
heard

as it was

you

were

the

one i should
have

known

better

dear that article made me
feel
like i was
too
tired

to

know

you

any better than
that

mood

that

big

fat

mood what were the chances
that
was

going

to

work

right for me
ever

no there was no chance
i

had

not

the ghost of

a
chance

dear

no
chance

for me i could hear

it

all

the
time

dear

there is no

chance

for me to

be
little and different it said not too

softly

at

all
dear it wasn't

right

it
wasn't

exemplary it was

stuff

and fluff agitation like a
feather

to a horse's
nose
it wreaked of pain in the ghostly

realm
soft pain it

was

like yes i told you

that

much in art

in

the visual art of one

painting

we

went

over

that
but

didn't

hold
to

our memory in

this
way we lost

it

in the way

that
article kept suggesting

we
were

in

the
way

we were in
the
way i kept

hearing

about the way

we
were

in

the way dear

what

kind of mood

is

that with which to be

reconciled
no

that
is

not

mercifully ordained it should not

be

ordained so that

i

suffer unnecessarily in the light
of
nonsense like a

moth

but that is
what
that article suggested

it

suggested i should
behave

as such be

good
about

acting

that way for peaceful reasons
it

said keep your

reasoning

peaceful that way

and
you

will

go far but

why

would
i

want

you

to go far dear i mean we

didn't

have
to

go
that
far to get each other

even

as
that

was being suggested we were

certainly
not

being

torn apart forever
but
it

did

tear

me

apart at times like that

i

took

shelter of this
of

course and you were there

you

were

always

there for me like this

dear

i remember twixt
the
shame of popping

in

and out of the guilt

trip

nonsense and state
of
aggravation i was

in

denial
of

how

much

you
had

meant to me

like
this i should

have
thought

of

you more what

you
were
going

through i don't

really

feel

like
i
know

dear

not

entirely no i

don't

entirely know you dear let's
face

it i am

a
loser to you

i

am losing it

all

the time to

you

i need you

i
go

running

to

you

like
a
child

to

an imaginary friend at times like this
that
is

what

that power of suggestion
does

to
me
yes

coming

from that mid

air

article it is
stuff

and fluff pain to be

with

you according to
that

article but that

is

getting

it

backwards that is
not

the
truth

that

is

horrible no way

to
treat a man however temporarily

dear

you
know

that of course but we

need

to

reassure

ourselves
in
light

of that article

that
strange
dog

like
article

has

been

dogging us for too long

with

that strange light

it

gives

off

dear

i

am
very glad to

offer

respectful
obeisances

to

you

and the others as you
have

suggested there can

be

no doubt after all we
do

have
time

on our side

however

i

am

tempted to say

touche

in response to your latest

advance

even

as

there is a hint of plaintive melody
i

hear yes tempted
to

say

touche

why because i am friendly

and

can
be

of interest to
all
in
one
way only as you said accepting that

it

is

a

challenge to get

around

the

writing

style

by

design
it

is highly subjective yes the reader gets

what

they

want

to get or

can

get
can

get yes or

what

they can't get

can
be

understood

just as i

do

understand how there is much to be
said

for what is

understood

the
mood

belongs to the one it is already

decided

the mood is

never

understood as new

either
this

is

not to be

understood

as
new

as

good

as

new or otherwise in the

mood

you
know

the

mood

for that you

know

the

mood

and i are

different and you chant Hare Krsna now

like

this
you

see

that

makes me friendly

i

know
you

can be friendly so how

am

i

now

i

am

perfectly

inclined

to

write

like
this

as an acknowledgement

of
what
is

understood

the
mood
is

never

new i would

most

certainly
not

be so brazenly in denial as to say i am
one

to

freshen
the

mood

always the mood

belongs
with

one

as
one
is

one heavy one

the

mood is one understood as

is

you could say

the
mood is one

like

no

other

and amuse me

you
know

but

never
mind

yes i am not in

the

mood like the worst of

us

i am aware

of
more

but

unlike the worst

of

us

i
have

spoken

of mayamayam in
your
company and yes like i

said

you know the

mood

is not mine
or

ours to experience as what
one
is understood to

be

one

knows

the mood is with the
one

we
all

can be moody
and

here

we
are

after

all

actions
speaking

louder

than words in a way but with
one

time
is

on
our

side and the mood is

never

new

yes
it

is

exactly

like the mood
gets

old as fast

as
can be with

one

one
the

mood

is

the same and we have
to

let the mood

be

to be understood

as
older

yes

since

time
immemorial

the mood has always been
the

one

we
let be to

be

understood and at home with
each

other older than

the

mood but with the one

refreshed

of

course
there

is

no

old

mood

remotely

like the little

old
mood

of

independence we give

up
to the one

knowing

full well the

one

puts

it

aside

anyhow

i

don't

want to just

cop

out
now

on the idea

of

writing further about

that
now

somewhat

far

off

article in question

and

now

the

one

you

thought to convert into a
worthy

place

holder
so to speak

has

to
be

looked at again

but

wait

and we shall see how

Krsna

feels

first

forever

if

we

wait
long

enough

eh

yes

no doubt Krsna feels forever

properly

the
sat

chit

ananda

vigraha
of

being

one

of

course
the academy will

look

for cohesive coherency and miss
out

on the way
one

is

like

i

am

supposed
to
get

back

to
that

article right now and read it again

dear
yes
dear

by

my
own

volition

i

have

been neutralized all
the

same mind you

yes
running

not
very fast around in the

middle

running

around
in

circles
in

the

middle
of the road like one

mind

on

the
road
to

the

best

use

of a real
bargain

not bad like

this

really not too

good
either

but

hey i need

the

exercise
dear

so how can i help you stop

it

i know you
love

to chant Hare Krsna dear we have
been
through this before

but
how

can

i help you

do
you
want

to

stop
it

dear

would
you

rather i stop
it

dear

dear

dear
we

have been through this before
listen
this

is

me now hear

me

stop

it

and chant Hare Krsna if you like
hear

me
chant

Hare Krsna very nicely too

i

don't

mind
i
don't

mind

at

all it's all over so far as

i

am concerned Hare Krsna how

can i help

you

are you new
to
Krsna

consciousness

no

i don't think so but let us

just

see
how

you

are

like this so

suddenly
yes

now

that
i

am

not so mental and talking

to

someone else it
is

good

for

me to see

how

you
are

actually
let
us

just

see who you

are
listening

to
like

this

so

suddenly
first

eh

yes who am i to

talk

to

you
like this so

suddenly

in

essence
like i am

preaching
Krsna

consciousness

am i okay so far as you

are

concerned
so

suddenly
let

us

just

go

ahead
and find out how we are chanting

like

this so suddenly okay is

this

okay
really

i

would

like to chant Hare Krsna with you like this
so

suddenly it will
make
you
wonder
what i am

up

to if i

am

really
up
to

it

like

this

why

not
actually why not
chant
Hare Krsna together and watch what happens
to

this so suddenly

yes
there

is
time for me

to

chant at any

rate
join

in

if you like there is

time

for me to chant at

any

rate join in
if

you

like

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare
Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare
                                    
    
A Different Story